eugenietan

Many of you would know by now that I didn’t return to Kuching for Chinese New Year. That’s cause my family came over for holiday. So though I really miss the open house mood I had no choice but to stay back. gosh.. missing the sound of fire crackers, missing mee sua on 1st day of chinese new year, miss ang pao [duh], miss ppl telling me "aiyo, lu ko si ane san ar" [aiyo, ur still so skinny ar].. lol..

Seriously fun is subjective. Fun can be anyway at anytime as long you want it. Chinese New Year away from friends was fun too, but in a total different manner.

I got a closer look of mum. This time I can say I really did. People age and my mum is not exempted. Her pace is much slower now, can see her being extra cautious at the escalator, wrinkles on her hand just saddened my heart. But she definitely rocks when she did the body slide at water park. Mum, you rock still.

But the desire of being home on CNY dies hard. Imagine this. Mum, I wanna go home next CNY. Miss CNY mood la. Ai meh? If you go home, then I wouldn’t be able to travel. You n sis will have your own life soon. So I wanna travel as much as I can now. Now, tell me how you feel. At that time, my heart says.. Ok Ok. Anything you say. I dont wanna be home anymore. Forget about what I say. Lol

Realise mum is tolerating me in a lot of ways. She’s kinda afraid I would get angry or frustrated. Tried to keep up to my pace of walking. [you really don't have to] Willingly take cab when sis and I are tired.

She’s not the only one afraid. I am even more afraid. What can a 21 year old girl promise? I dont dare to promise a good future. But there’s a song to my mum and all wonderful mums in the world..

"I Can’t believe it,

Don’t know where to start,

No.. baby.

So many questions deep inside my heart,

Give me a moment before you go,

There’s something you ought to know,

Baby, now and forever,

Until the time is through [Until the time is through],

I’ll be standing here,

waiting and never give up my faith in you, [give up my faith in you]

try to make it clear,

without your love i would be half a man,

maybe one day you will understand,

now and forever until the time is through [i'll be waiting]"

Yea. Five. Until the time is through. Sure I wouldn’t be half a man. lol. But all that is good in me I owe it to you..